Getting too emotional bothers me ( a lot )
Sometimes I get too emotional it bothers me. No one in this life gets exactly what they need. This is life, and that is its test. We all get granted things and others not. Sub7ana Allah. There are some things we crave for so much in our life, but we still do not get them, even as simple as some emotions.
I have many things Al hamd lillah. But there is something I was really craving for so much I did not end up having (so far). Maybe I will some day.
I just feel so bad that I even feel this way. I get scared God will be upset from me, I even feel ashamed.
I am not looking for anyone’s pity here, I am just taking it out, because I am angry at myself.
I am trying so hard not to let my missing piece bother me, but sometimes this makes me react funny with people. I maybe misunderstood at times. And I get myself in trouble others. It bothers me so much.
I always try to redirect myself back again and tell myself this is my big test… Be careful Dalulla… you may get God to be upset with you… It is very very difficult, but
I am really trying.
Please pray for me, I do not want God to be angry with me after all the blessings I have. Pray for me to accept with strength my test and to do well.
Pray for me to be strong.
I have many things Al hamd lillah. But there is something I was really craving for so much I did not end up having (so far). Maybe I will some day.
I just feel so bad that I even feel this way. I get scared God will be upset from me, I even feel ashamed.
I am not looking for anyone’s pity here, I am just taking it out, because I am angry at myself.
I am trying so hard not to let my missing piece bother me, but sometimes this makes me react funny with people. I maybe misunderstood at times. And I get myself in trouble others. It bothers me so much.
I always try to redirect myself back again and tell myself this is my big test… Be careful Dalulla… you may get God to be upset with you… It is very very difficult, but
I am really trying.
Please pray for me, I do not want God to be angry with me after all the blessings I have. Pray for me to accept with strength my test and to do well.
Pray for me to be strong.
posted by Dalulla at 9:55 PM
10 Comments:
ma3lesh ya dodo.... have hope... that maybe one day God will indeed let you have this feeling... never stop asking.. do not depend on logistics.... but on God's mercy
someone once told me a doaa, do not remember who, well it goes something like: Allahumma la tozheb kalby ela shai2 zaweitoh 3anny.
meaning God let me not miss what i do not have, not sure of the exact words, just the overall spirit of it.
Rabbena ma3aki ISA
Wallahi ya doshar I have hope, otherwise i would not have reached to where i am today al hamd lillah.. It is just that sometimes i miss some feelings.. But I always do go back to God... That in itself is a blessing. But sometimes i do feel down.. I think that is alright we are human after all, or at least I keep telling myself so. I also have faith that God is kind. He knows I don't want to upset Him.. I am asking for his help... and I like to seek whomever can help back me up, just like u did now.. There are some moments when we need to feel others are around with duaa, good wishes and prayers of support. It does help... Thanks for the duaa, although I could not pronounce the word: zaweitoh.. tell me what it is when we speak isa...
I have only a moment right now but so many things I'd lie to say...You are strong, you have given it all you can. It is ok to be vulnerable sometimes. It will balance out. Sending an email to you as soon as I can, probably tomorrow evening. Love to you.
what ever ya Dalia will pass ISA. I guess this feeling that you have could be due to your pregnancy where people feel emotional more than ever and they wants others to give them more care than before. I remember one of my friends told me while I need care !
sometimes we don't get all what we want at once .. because that is the big test .. Be patient and ISA you will have the reward ISA.
and always remember "God puts no burden on any person beyond what He has given him. After a difficulty, God will soon grant relief. " Quran 65:7
Assalamo-alaikum.
This is my first time at this blog. I actually came upon this page accidentally by googling "how to let go of what Allah does not want for you". I do not know anything about this blog or what is bothering you Dalulla, but the words you wrote kind of felt like my own. I am also at a place in my life where I think I really want something because to me it looks like everything I've always wanted. However, I think perhaps God may not want it for me because it doesn't seem to be happening. Of course everything is in His control and He can change things so quickly. In fact it makes you want to pray harder because you think that just maybe if you pray harder He will accept your prayer and make it happen. Yet, I do not want to want what He does not want for me. Question is, how do you know? Sometimes when you want something and it doesn't seem to be happening, how do you know if God is just testing your patience or if He just wants something completely different for you? And how do you let go? Even accepting that perhaps it is not what He wants for you, why can't we always make those cravings/desires go away? I will Inshallah try reading the dua Doshar mentioned - since I'm sure it is only with His help that I can overcome this. Please all remember me in your prayers as well. I also have His countless blessings in my life and I do not want to be ungrateful.
May God Almighty accept all our good duas and help us to be strong. Ameen.
Wasalaam.
Salams Sara, I am happy that I have known you . I googled in this sentence and i found Dalia.... what a coincidence or let us say it is really un usuall that you find some one that regular by writing this sentence in google.
It is not coincidence ... It is all preplanned from God that you write these words in your google and you read what dalia posted . God is close and near more than we even feel .. we just need to look outwards with His signals that He sends for us regularly. So He hears your call and you were meant to read this post for some reasons...I will remember you in my Duaa...please do for me as well . I need to have a REAL sort of dependance on Him.
I know how you feel, because I can be way too emotional, and it is wrecking my life, right now, I have someone that I have strong feelings for, and when I hurt them, I avoided them for a long time, and they told me that it hurt them alot, and I told them I was sorry, and that I never meant to hurt them, and then I started crying, and each time I said I was sorry I cried again, they looked at me, and said that is why I won't date you right now, cause you are way too emotional, I just wish I could stop being so too emotional, I love this person with all my heart, and I want to be with this person again...and this might be my only chance....I just need some advice.....please?
It is weird.. Something has been wrong lately with blogger... I wrote a very intense comment the other day and poof... it vanished!
Oh well, I always write them first on word, save em and them publish. I am doing that now…
Thank you all … Jane I haven’t received the mail, but thanks for keeping me in your thoughts.. Yes I am trying to keep that so called strength… I really am trying, I just do not know what to do about the physical part… I am very exhausted… Again no maid, even the one that comes twice to clean didn’t come… the issue is not that though…
It those missing feelings, but I am getting acquainted… I am trying to adjust and it has to work. At least I believe that I can make it work or must… God knows, I always ask Him for guidance and help, but I get shy when I am in those moods where I still feel I miss something. I know if I do not get what I lack now and if I am doing my best in this life to meet God’s standards of goodness, I know I will be rewarded, I am trying to be good… I know it… But I am human, and I do get weak. I just fear weakness in general; I hate it as a matter of fact. But Al hamd lillah in all cases.
Sarah, glad u dropped by…. And as roora mentioned you never know, maybe u were destined to come here…
Let me tell u what I think. It is not the praying hard, it is the praying hard for Allah to guide you in whichever direction he knows is safest for us.. It is not the Thing that we want that we need to pray for, and we will not know many things on the spot, but God does clear the picture at some point. In some cases no, it is still not clear, God had a wisdom behind it… Wa 3asa an takraho shay2oun wahowa khayroun lakom.. and vise versa.. you are probably familiar with those verses. It is a long issue but believe me have faith and always ask Allah for his love to guide you, He is kind and loving… Inna ALLAHA Laysa bithalamin Lil 3abeed.. God is kind.
Assalamo-alaikum.
I know I'm very late, but thanks for the comments roora and dalulla. Came back here again just to read your comments as it was getting hard for me again and your comments were helpful. I guess I have somewhat let go of what God may not want for me (notice i said 'somewhat'.). I agree with you dalulla, God is kind, I know He is, but sometimes, its just sooo hard. Its like this one aspect in life that He tells me to want but I just cant see how He wants me to get there. Its so overwhelming sometimes that I really am afraid i'm going to fall, that I'm going to let go of Him and I can't stand the idea of that. I just need a way to make Him happy so that He will help me. Yes He is loving, i know that, but ugh this is sooo hard. What do I do, I pray to Him, I ask for His help and no one else's and maybe He's just testing me, but I am having a really hard time staying strong, really really hard time and I just want Him to bring my 'ease after the hardship' because I'm afraid that if it continues, the hardship will make me bitter, will make my heart hard and I dont want it to. I can't see what purpose this has anymore. I just want this pain to be over. Why wont it go away?
Dalulla, I dont' speak arabic (I can't get by reading - just not the english-arabic) so I'm not exactly sure what you wrote earlier - would you be able to translate?
Sorry for coming on to your blog and getting all emotional on you. It's just that your words mean something - the timing, the google search, all has His hand in it and perhaps I wanted to be close to a part of my life where I see His hand in things when its so hard to hang on. Don't know if I'm making any sense. Please remember me in your prayers. Insh'Allah I will remember you in mine.
Wasalaam.
Waalikom alsalam
Dear Sarah,
Happy you came by again, I really want to help u… Late or not late we are all supposed to support each other whenever we can.
Sweetheart, we all get weak sometimes. Do not think that if at some point u got weak u will loose track… As long as you love God you will always love Him, believe me. It is human nature to not understand some times, to be confused. When that happens, we need to ask Allah for guidance. His response may come in many different ways, and as long as we believe that He will respond it will happen, we will be guided, how I cannot say but it does happen. I sure know that for fact from experience. You just carry on your life in the best means possible in the sense of being good the way God told us and things will be just fine. When there is an issue confusing you, ask Allah instantly and know that he will guide you. Sarah no matter what keep your love and faith strong in Allah, let your standards of right and wrong to be related to the Quran and Sunna.
Tell me where are you from? You said you do not understand Arabic.. The verse I mentioned earlier … Wa 3asa…… It means that you may love something that is no good for you and vise versa … When things do not work out it is not the end of the world, believe me… there is always good behind every thing that happens to us.. Even the things we feel are terrible, there are wisdoms behind them. They may be happening to strengthen us, they may be happening to teach Try to be as positive as u can Sarah.
By the way, I do not mind at all u coming here and getting all emotional… DO it as much as you need to Sarah and as frequent as you deem it necessary. I in turn will do my best to help.. I wish I can really help my dear..
The other phrase I mentioned in Arabic was Ina Allaha laysa bithalamin lil 3abeed, means that God does not do humans injustice… God is Just. He is LOVE, HE IS MERCY…. HE IS all the good traits we know of and don’t know of. Laysa kamithlihi shay2 meaning nothing and no one compares to him…
God be with you Sarah, and insha’Allah (God willing) I will keep u in my prayers.
Pray for the Arabs of the Middle East Sarah, where ever you are. Pray for the Palestinians …for the Lebanese, for the Iraqis and Afghanis… For any human in pain to be strong.
Ameen.
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