Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Getting too emotional bothers me ( a lot )

Sometimes I get too emotional it bothers me. No one in this life gets exactly what they need. This is life, and that is its test. We all get granted things and others not. Sub7ana Allah. There are some things we crave for so much in our life, but we still do not get them, even as simple as some emotions.

I have many things Al hamd lillah. But there is something I was really craving for so much I did not end up having (so far). Maybe I will some day.

I just feel so bad that I even feel this way. I get scared God will be upset from me, I even feel ashamed.
I am not looking for anyone’s pity here, I am just taking it out, because I am angry at myself.

I am trying so hard not to let my missing piece bother me, but sometimes this makes me react funny with people. I maybe misunderstood at times. And I get myself in trouble others. It bothers me so much.

I always try to redirect myself back again and tell myself this is my big test… Be careful Dalulla… you may get God to be upset with you… It is very very difficult, but

I am really trying.

Please pray for me, I do not want God to be angry with me after all the blessings I have. Pray for me to accept with strength my test and to do well.

Pray for me to be strong.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

THE WALL OF HATE 7minutes and 50 seconds

I was pissed off watching the Israeli prime minister’s speech amongst the American congressmen and women the other day (I think my blood pressure did rise as I watched and listened) !!!
UFFFF… Are those people for real? I really do not get it. Are they dumb or playing dumb.. or are they really that sick? They say lies and believe them? They have principles??? WOW?? They want peace???

Why is it always they that are the ones who want peace and the Palestinians are rejecting? As he spoke his tanks and soldiers were firing bullets at Palestinian unarmed citizens and they are the ones wanting peace? How come? Really how come?

They (American and Israeli officials) shall never cease to marvel me!

Please take some time to watch this.. It is not a new peace of information, but maybe it has details you would like to be aware of.

Thursday, May 25, 2006


This pregnancy is worrying me from day one… I do have faith in God, but now I am beginning to feel that I need to strengthen it… I have been under so much stress ever since I got pregnant. The stress is more above the normal levels of stress I usually go through, or in other words, more concentrated and in higher doses!

I do not mind stress, I always know it comes and goes, it is part of life. the problem is, every time I get stressed I fear for the baby in excess. The reason being that I cannot control the level of stress any more and that is what really bothers me.
I can only pray nothing affects this new life I am carrying within me (AMEEN AMEEN AMEEN), and the other thing is I am trying my best to stay away from it all, but it has not been working at all for the past couple of months.
Now is the time I really wish I could have been able to travel and have nothing to do with anyone!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

A Beautiful way to look at things

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like they have been sent by God, and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, and that their work is done. The prayer you sent to God has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season!
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons. Things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
This was a message I received by mail. I felt it was very meaningful and wanted to share it with you all.

Monday, May 22, 2006

Democracy?! ??! ???! ??????!!!!

After The fall of Baghdad, in an attempt to prove his democracy and love of world peace, Bush invited all the presidents of the world to have a football tournament by the banks of Degla River…

During the football match, the ball fell in the river. Bush called onto a soldier of the Marines to plunge into the river and get the ball.

The soldier refused saying:
I cannot jump into the water, there may be life threatening crocodiles and I have a wife and kids whom I’d like to stay alive for.

Blair called one of his Desert Wolves soldiers and requested the same as Bush did. ‘

The soldier refused saying:
I cannot jump into the water, there may be life threatening crocodiles and I have a wife and kids whom I’d like to stay alive for.

Mubarak called one of his special forces' soldiers and "requested" the same as the other two presidents did.
In no time and without hesitation, the soldier gallantly plunged into the water, fought whatever crocodiles he encountered, got the ball out of the river and walked out (of course with injuries).

Surprised by his immediate action, all the journalists present gathered around him and asked him about the secret behind this unquestionable bravery and immediate action, the soldier replied saying:


You know you're in 2006 when...

I thought this was quite interesting and lots of it is true... please read on

You know you're living in 2006 when...

1 You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.

2 You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.

3 You have a list of 16 phone numbers to reach your family of 4.

4 You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.

5 Your reason for not staying in touch with friends is that they don't have e-mail addresses.

6 When you go home after a long day at work you still answer the phone in a business manner.

7 When you make phone calls from home, you accidentally dial " 0 " to get an outside line.

8 You've sat at the same desk for four years and worked for three different companies.

10 You learn about your redundancy on the 11 o'clock news .

11 Your boss doesn't have the ability to do your job.

12 Contractors outnumber permanent staff and are more likely to get long-service awards. AND..............

13 You read this entire list, and kept nodding and smiling.

14 As you read this list, you think about forwarding it to your "friends."

15 You got this email from a friend that never talks to you anymore, except to send you jokes from the net.

16 You are too busy to notice there was no #9

17 You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9

18 AND NOW U R LAUGHING at yourself.

Friday, May 12, 2006

Monitor down....

Our computer Monitor has been in maintenence for some time.. I miss blogging.. I really need to catch up. But for now, I just wanted to tell you all sorry I have not been around visiting your own blogs and following up on you.. I miss you all lots.
Oher than the monitor issue, I've been alone with no housekeeper for some time now and I had to take care of everything on my own. With the pregnency and all, it truely has been very exhausting, but Al hamd Lillah, all passes..
I always tell myself, If God put me to it, He will get me throught it! It is true... Never let anything make you fall.. kneel for a bit when you feel the burden is too heavy, you have the right! But get up and continue no matter what.. We can adjust to things, even the things we are not used to and do not like. There is one thing we all must know: some things we have to do, and we must gather all our energy to do them.. It is all a psychological state of mind...
If you tell yourself I WILL do it, you will find yourself doing what ever it is you thought you cannot do... We just need to try.. Al hamd lillah for everything...

Monday, May 01, 2006

kid's issues!!!

Children sometimes come up with the funniest and cutest comments just when you are about to burst with anger they say something that just makes you stop and smile if not even laugh… I do not know if this will sound disgusting for you people out there, but I wanted to blog it anyway, please forgive me if it does disgust you in any way.

Here goes, an incident with Doudi my friend’s son.. He is three years and eight months. Doudi still sometimes forgets and pees in his pants and occasionally does more… This time it was the “more” that he did…

Heba the nanny: Doudi, you are a big boy now, you should not poop in your pants, right?

Doudi: Yes I am a big boy, but my poppo (butt) is still nouno (small) and Seif (his elder brother) hit my nouno poppo (butt) and so "it" (the small butt) pooped in my pants…

The kid is trying to get through that he has grown up but his butt hasn’t yet and there fore no one should hold him accountable for his butt’s actions! (His mom and I were laughing hysterically as she told me the story)

Now, my son’s turn, second day after Doudi’s incident. Omar is four months younger than Doudi..

My mom: Omar come on let’s go to the bathroom so you can pee… (Omar as usual resistant, and never asks to go so we have to initiate the steps towards the bathroom every now and then. He only asks occasionally and when he wants to poop).

Omar goes to the bathroom, pees and gets dressed… But guess what, he pees more in his pants a few minutes after mom had already taken him to pee!!

My mom: Omar why did you do that? Didn’t I just take you to pee?
Omar: yes nanna, asl howa kan keteer awy (yes granny, but there was still more).

Hmmm, it is a hassle. The kids keep doing this over and over again and ofcourse not to mention other things and new issues keep coming up..
I wish I can close my eyes and open them and the poopo and peeing messes are over and out! I wish they can just go to the bathroom alone. Insha’Allah I will have a new one to deal with, I hope I will not have both to deal with for a long time where this particular issue is concerned.
It is all part of the process of their growth, but again that is one part I do wish would pass quickly!